Quite a bit has happened in the last two weeks. Along with the normal work, coaching, etc…there’s been quite a few random things to prepare for. First…trial is this month. 2 weeks from yesterday to be specific. It’s starting to freak me out a little bit. I know it probably shouldn’t…but at the same time, I know it’s only going to get worse once it comes time to actually go down to Florida.
Maybe I’m completely crazy for wanting to go to this thing. I probably am. But I am so ready to finally see him get locked up. While I know there’s a chance he’ll get away with it…I’m praying he won’t. I’m praying that there will finally be some justice in this “justice” system. It’s hard to say if it’s false hope, it probably is. But either way…I’m definitely going. I need to prove to myself that I CAN go.
On another note…the other big news has to do with this blog…and the newspaper. One of the reporter’s at the local paper was doing an article on the rise of a need for support groups for children that suffered domestic violence. I did an interview for it this week…and the article will come out on Sunday. It was a little terrifying to know that my face and name are about to be out there (as everything on this blog has been anonymous so far…well minus the people that know me personally). But at the same time, it’s a liberating feeling. Part of the problem with domestic violence is the fact that no one will talk about it. Everyone’s afraid of either the repercussions, or the idea that people will look down on them. I can’t tell you how many times people have seen me as “weaker” than a “normal” person because I went through the things I did. They assume I can’t handle myself or the struggles I face.
In reality…all of those people couldn’t be much further off. Because of what I’ve dealt with…I’m ten times more capable of dealing with the usual stresses of life. Not to mention the harder situations. There’s nothing this life can throw at me that I haven’t been through…and made it through. Even in moments of weakness…I’m stronger than the average person.
It felt good to say everything in the interview. Talk about how anyone who’s been through situations like I was…should talk about it. It’s not something to be ashamed of, or something to hide from. It’s something you have to take head on…and learn to live with. Plus it seems like this is what I've been waiting for. This blog has gotten pretty popular quickly. But this will reach so many other people...which was the whole reason for starting this blog in the first place. I just hope it helps someone. Watch for the article this Sunday online and in the paper J