It’s been a long time since I posted. I feel like I say that
a lot…but things have been very crazy. My best friend and I moved into our new
house, I dropped out of school, then re-enrolled. Things have completely changed
in the last month. I’m not sure if I ever really dealt with my father’s death…but
I did as much as I could. And then I used his death to motivate me to change
the things that needed to be changed.
I’ll
get back into stories soon. I have so many things I’ve thought about since he
died…experiences that I had forgotten about, but have come back up. Things that
I never thought I’d be able to talk about…but somehow this blog has managed to
open up.
I had a
long conversation with someone at work the other night. A conversation I never
could have anticipated. I shared things that I never tell anyone…and I was
perfectly okay with talking about it all. It actually felt good in a way, to
get it all out there…and share it with someone that hopefully found some kind
of faith in it.
I don’t
currently have internet connected at the new house, but I’m working on it. Once
I do I’ll be able to get back to writing more often. But all that matters right
now…is I’m still fighting. The last two months have changed everything in my
life…and while it all seems kind of the same…I feel like a completely different
person. My inner strength has been torn apart. My ability to help others even
when I’m falling apart has been challenged. But I got through it. The struggle
isn’t over, but it’s going to be okay.
Sometimes
when I look back at the things that I’ve experienced in my life…it scares me a
little bit. I start to wonder how I turned out normal at all. Then again maybe
I’m not. Ok I’m rambling and starting to overanalyze so I’m ending this post.
Normalcy…good topic for future.
Don’t
give up on me…I promise I won’t quit writing.
