If you pay any attention to this page...you know I have desperately struggled to write the last few years.
I spent a very long time being sad. Struggling with emotions, and not knowing how to deal with the feelings that were wrecking my mental health. Nearly 20 years of my life were spent trying to process the things that were happening around me.
Today...I don't have to try and process nearly as much. I have my bad days. These last few weeks actually have been chock full of my father in my memories and in my dreams. It has been exhausting, my anxiety has been in overdrive...and I have struggled.
But as I looked at social media memories today compared to my current life...I was so thankful. I realized that when I take a step back and look at where my life has gone...it has changed more than I ever thought possible.
So I am going to try and take this blog in a new direction so that I can start writing more.
I will never sugar coat things. I will never pretend that hard things aren't hard.
Marriage at 19, divorced by 21...in an ugly situation.
Yet here we stand. And when I look at my life on a day to day basis...I am so thankful. When I see my husband and kids together...I tear up. I am relieved. My life isn't anything that I thought it would be...it is better. It is real. The daily REAL...is exactly what I needed.
The new direction is simply "thankful."
It's not just surviving trauma.
It's thriving from trauma.
It's living the life that you didn't want...and creating the life that you dreamed of.
Yes.
Dreamed of.
Life will never be perfect. But if you do it right...it is sooo damn good.
This year has rocked worlds.
But this world is so much better.
Stay tuned for finding positivity in "hard." Because in fact...in can be done.
