Master of manipulation

On episode 2 of: “step moms that didn’t give a damn”

(I want to be clear that now as a grown ass woman I can see this "step mom" was a child and clearly had no idea what was going on around her. But what I can not forgive is her fully allowing abuse and not saying a word and/or defending the man abusing his daughter.)

She was only 11 years older than I was…
and at the time I was in fact…11.

My father...was 44.

You can totally do that math yourself.

I had already survived more than she could comprehend at this point
...and was dealing with a constant battle of trying to keep him happy while trying to get out of his home.

She had a son…and he was my little brother.
They then had a baby as well. 

I couldn’t walk away if I wanted to because I loved those little boys. 

In fact, my father used them all the time to gaslight me into coming back to his house. 

There is truly no guilt or weight that compares to that feeling.

The feeling of an older sibling trying to protect little kids in this kind of situation. 

Especially when the older sibling can't even protect herself. 

However, this post is only about one thing to be honest.

It's about her response to me going to file a domestic violence report for the first time when I left his house on a weekend that she witnessed small parts of. 

The specific situation was from him hurting me earlier in the week (you can find all of that here). Police report included photos of my bruised and swollen head. She wasn't there...but I have no doubt she knew something had happened. 

She made a report on his behalf discussing her interpretation of the weekend (can we please address one more time that she was not there during any of the time frames...)

This “step mom” also continuously caught him using drugs and got him on tape weeks later admitting to drug use and abuse (around me).

Literally. Let that part sink in please.

I hugged her. So clearly, I was fine.

That’s not even the best part.

This post was meant to showcase another human that had a chance to help me…but chose not to. 

Here was her take on the overall situation…

DESPITE THERE BEING PHYSICAL EVIDENCE MATCHING EXACTLY WHAT I SAID HAPPENED.

Clearly...

This was all on me.

I was wrong.

I was manipulative.

I was the grand puppet master of everyone around me…at 11-12 years old.

It couldn't possibly have been the psychopathic drug addict involved.

I was worried about chores.

Not pure survival.